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it seems like....

i've been having more and more conversations nowadays with my mother about what the future is going to look like for the two of us (and my 7 year old sister and my 22 year old brother). these conversations seem menacing but at the same time refreshing... and it brings our relationships full circle. i remember be the 8 year old who carried all of these fears and worries and responsibilities for my mom who was in an extremely abusive relationship and only could think about making the next step to live in the next moment and never ever considering her life a year or 2 up the road. 

when i was in raleigh earlier this month i met a radical mother by the name of Megan who was super nurturing and awesome and she asked me, "did you save your mother's life?" and i started welling up in tears because i knew that i had but no one had ever told me that it happened like that. i told her, "when i was 8" and she said, "when i was 12." it's amazing the connections to you can make with people - how simple it is yet how largely avoided it is. 

we haven't been in much contact since SEIRN but i think about Megan often - about what it meant to have her show in my life, what it meant for me to show in hers... and how our paths will cross yet again. 

i love moms. whatever.

Posted July 26, 2012